Writer, creative, herb-lover, rabble-rouser, thrill-seeker. Anti-this-and-that but also dreaming.
I am a writer, creative, and herbalist who uses words, threads and plants to explore queer survivorhood, the body and healing. I also facilitate 1-on-1 and small group Breathwork sessions. With a past life in fashion design, I now use my hands to map and mark the body through movable states of (dis)embodiment. I recently finished a graduate degree and completed a thesis that works to translate the embodied experience of a queer survivor of multiple forms of violence. In it I weave together theory, social justice movements, literary sources, creative non-fiction, embroidery, radical somatic and healing arts practices.
Editor of the anthology Queering Sexual Violence: Radical Voices from Within the Anti-Violence Movement, I have had writing published in HandJob Zine, OCHO: A Journal of Queer Arts, the Outrider Review, The Establishment and on The Feminist Wire. I am also the creative nonfiction editor for Hematopoiesis Press, an online literary journal focused on bodies and language.
Most of my work has been directly in service to and with survivors of sexual violence, in particular queer, transgender and gender non-conforming survivors. I am queer and survivor of multiple forms of violence. I began this work raising money for organizations, transitioned into being a rape crisis counselor in an emergency room and worked for a short time in a community organizing project before I left to focus on putting together an anthology highlighting LGBTQ survivors experiences which was released in April 2016. Over time, I became acutely aware that the larger mainstream anti-sexual violence movement is not (yet) equipped to meet the needs of LGBTQ populations.
A queer and trans affirming, trauma-informed herbalist & Breathworker, I offer sliding scale care as a practitioner with The Breathe Network as well as through my own practice. I also offer writing and embroidery workshops in LGBTQ centers, at harm reduction clinics, at colleges and universities and with veterans. I am tuned in to hearing and translating the stories of our bodies, tuned into somatic and embodied expression to move through the places that are stuck, hurting and grieving.
The first survivor I ever began work with was myself, as I began to realize I hadn’t addressed years on years of trauma resulting in complex PTSD. I love being in community with other survivors. It’s where I feel most at home and seen. I love doing work outside the medical industrial complex that supports healing & supports people as they give language to their own experience.
I work towards providing care that is in line with and accountable to healing justice & disability justice spaces (and want to recognize the legacy of activists, writers and healers who have been creating a language and framework for these spaces for a long time as they ground them in queer and trans communities, poor and working class communities and communities of color-- people like Mia Mingus, Leah Lakshmi Piepzna-Samarasinha, Kay Ulanday Barrett, Reina Gossett, Stacey Milburn, billie rain, Ejeris Dixon, Dori Midnight, Sean Donahue, Emi Koyama and so many other people). I work through a harm reduction lens meaning I support people where they are at and bring curiosity to substance use and misuse. I want to provide care that is accessible in multiple ways; through interrogating how ableism impacts survivors and how we are able to access care, through recognizing the impacts of racism, transphobia & transmisogyny, homophobia, fatphobia, slut-shaming and classism and and and.
I feel a kindred kind of love and respect for survivors of sexual violence. I admire our willingness to sit with what is profoundly complicated and difficult. I admire our tenacity and resilience, our searching for healing, our willingness to settle into the life-long continuum of healing. I admire our desires to shift and grow into aliveness.